However I think you must be lucky to have these opportunities to seek many paths. You must of been somehow ready on a deeper level to develop and learn more and advance. I am sorry to have listened to your monologue that had some negative moments in your life.
I agree some places have energy. It happened to me, a little example. I tried to find a place or a position in my room to be more creative. It never worked and my efforts would produce minimal output over the years. I never gave up. I believed there had to be and optimal space or position for peace, happiness, and for perception to be like pure sunlight or crystal water to help the have deeper creative insights and output.
One day after re-arranging and positioning furniture. I settled on a chosen arrangement. I feel asleep, tired after many hours moving things around.
I never tried this position before and it seemed dumb and illogical. I simply accepted what I just did.
I was wrong, what followed next, since post COVID, has been staggering !
My creative output has been prolific and doing things that I would have not considered before Like, out of left field, I decided to learn a difficult language like Mandarin. I now like Mandarin very much. I have decided to study 书法 this semester and later in the year 水墨画中国山水. I think this new place of study has boosted energy in unexplainable ways. I do not complain and I am very happy :)
Your experiences are strange and fascinating, I think Camilla, you are an advancing soul.
I do not understand all your monologue,
However I think you must be lucky to have these opportunities to seek many paths. You must of been somehow ready on a deeper level to develop and learn more and advance. I am sorry to have listened to your monologue that had some negative moments in your life.
I agree some places have energy. It happened to me, a little example. I tried to find a place or a position in my room to be more creative. It never worked and my efforts would produce minimal output over the years. I never gave up. I believed there had to be and optimal space or position for peace, happiness, and for perception to be like pure sunlight or crystal water to help the have deeper creative insights and output.
One day after re-arranging and positioning furniture. I settled on a chosen arrangement. I feel asleep, tired after many hours moving things around.
I never tried this position before and it seemed dumb and illogical. I simply accepted what I just did.
I was wrong, what followed next, since post COVID, has been staggering !
My creative output has been prolific and doing things that I would have not considered before Like, out of left field, I decided to learn a difficult language like Mandarin. I now like Mandarin very much. I have decided to study 书法 this semester and later in the year 水墨画中国山水. I think this new place of study has boosted energy in unexplainable ways. I do not complain and I am very happy :)
Your experiences are strange and fascinating, I think Camilla, you are an advancing soul.